Society

I am having a hard time today being understanding and loving. I agree we have a messed up society, where everyone works for their own good and could not care less about everyone else around them, but I also have to understand the people who are in power and get to make decisions. If I had my own business I would make my own rules too and people better followed them if they wanted to work with me. I have worked long enough for other people to know how things work, and things never work to the employee´s advantage. There are hundreds of people wanting my job, so if I don´t follow the rules bye, bye I go and here comes some other person to do my job. So all you can do is submit, you shut up and submit, while that means you actually have to follow their pathetic rules, it does not mean I am less me, or that I will forget my dreams and ideals. Do I enjoy working 16 hours at the mall and get paid a lousy salary????? Nope, I do not, but that lousy salary pays the bills, so tough cookie for me. Reality sucks, and that is it, but I can change my reality, maybe not now, even though I wish I could, but eventually. If I work the lousy jobs my resume will grow and if I do a good job, people will trust me and offer me better jobs and maybe someday I will get to do whatever the heck I want to do, instead of working my butt off for someone else. That is just how things roll.
I actually have a pretty good attitude about it, I always make sure that everything I do I don´t do it just for my earthly boss, and I also have a great imagination, so folding clothes, or serving coffee just becomes this really exciting thing, but most of all I don´t give up. Or at least I try not to. So today I am frustrated about how can other people just think that they lose respect if they have to follow someone. I am having a hard time understanding what the heck is so hard about giving in a little in order to build something bigger and better for yourself and I am having a hard time being loving if I know this is most of all a problem with authority. It bothers me! I am bothered because I don´t feel like I can understand but I really want to. To me the quote "Everybody follows somebody" is true. I want to be loving and supportive and understanding, but I can´t and so I am trying to deal with my own frustration in the midst of it all. So I write, I write because right now it is all I can do.
Will write soon.
bye