HI

I know I haven't posted for a long time. Life has been quite crazy lately. A new job, a new beginning as a single person once again and a lot of crazy changes in my always crazy life.
I wonder!
I wonder because I do not know what is that God has planned for me and I am scared.
The job has been great, I have started working in the office instead of outside knocking on people's doors. I like it a lot better. but it is far and it ends late.
Money also has not stretched and returning from a long absence has not been smooth, especially since I started working.
Living in a money making culture can totally kill the happiest, most joyful simple heart. I feel suffocated by what I see and what I hear. I miss Africa everyday. Sometimes I cry, and most times I sigh, and like I told Lisa I dream of Loita and it makes me feel safe and warm and fuzzy.
I am happy though, I feel pretty happy, but it is an ambivalent feeling. This is my home, but home sometimes means heartache.
I guess I just need a little more time...
Being single is a different story! It was hurtful and it was sad but like most things in life it will go away, this pain and sadness.
Have been there, done that and bought the t-shirt.
The craziness is normal in my life if it was not there it would not be real, I like it that way. It gives meaning to my existance.
I know I have been a bad blogger, but between not having the internet, being dumped, working more than 12 hours and sleeping, time just does not exist.
Hopefully it will pay off, talk to me when I own a Maserati( that would be if I cared about such things)
Someone laughed at my idea of not wanting to live my life around money, I laughed at him for letting money control his life.
I will be happy, one day, somewhere, in a beautiful simple place and I will be FREE!!!!
Which is something money cannot buy!
Me