Madness

I haven't written on my blog for quite a while and although a lot of very nice things have happenned so have a lot of weird and sad things.
I haven't really been able to vent and work has been crazy and great at the same time. Even though I could not go back to my teaching job, that closed door has opened others like babysitting jobs that not only have helped my budget, but also grown that bug in me for teaching.
You will like to know that I have not moved out of my apartment, I have managed to stay there and I could not think of any better place to be at the moment than at my home.
Like everything in life in the realm of relationships, not only romantic, but in general, life has not been easy on me.
I don't think any year has been quite like 2009, not only did I live my great adventure with going to Africa, started my blog which I love, moved out, moved in, been dating and dumped and got dumped, but it was also the year of growth in me.
I did not see it while I was down in the dump crying my eyes out, nope, neither did I see it when I was laughing and smiling and loving and being loved, nope! I saw it when I sat alone contemplating the fact that I felt like nothing really significant had really happened, and then it hit me.
The tears, the laughter, the sadness, the happiness, it changed me.
I love and hate that! It makes me happy it changed me and it makes me sad that with it I lost so much more of that innocence that in some way or other I held on so dearly to.
I just turned 23 and I feel there is so much yet to learn, but if it will be anywhere near 2009 I rather not:P\If it were ever that easy!!!!