A White Horse and Its Rider:
"Then I saw Heaven open wide- and oh! a white horse and its Rider. The Rider, named Faithful and True, judges and makes war in pure righteousness. His eyes are a blaze of fire, on his head many crowns. He has a Name inscribed that´s known only to himself. He is dressed in a robe soaked with blood, and he is addressed as "Word of God." The armies of Heaven, mounted on white horses and dressed in dazzling white linen, follow him. A sharp sword comes out of his mouth so he can subdue the nations, then rule them with a rod of iron. He treads the wine- press of the raging wrath of God, the Sovereign- Strong. On his robe and thigh is written, King of Kings, Lord of Lords."(Rev.19:11-16, The Message)

And when that day comes I will shout. I will sing, to the Lamb, to the Lord, to my God, to my King! I will shout!!!!

And this is my post for today for I have to pack for a safari!
I am not really reading revelation, I have read it, but today´s worship at church was all about these verses and they really touched me. I don´t think we really put much thought about the days Revelation talks about. So besides making me think, it got my imagination to work.
I love it!
Well you won´t hear from me for this week, because I will be camping out in Loita (Kenya). I get to see all these places and meet all these people, and see animals(well hopefully).
I feel like Colin, I wish we were going today!!!
Wish me a Safari Njema!(thats swaheli for have a good trip)
I will tell you all about it in 5 days:)

Kwa heri(good-bye in swaheli, I am learning, oh, I don´t think I´m going back home, nope!)

Star Gazing

Yesterday I had a tough day! The papers that took me months to assemble, fill in, send to my college advisor, re-send it after I was told my date was wrong instead or mm/dd/yy, I wrote dd/mm/yy. Now if you don´t think that is ridiculous I don´t know what will become of you. It frustrated me. So, going back to yesterday, I was fuming all over and I was really not the best company throughout the day, Miss Heather was very patient with me tough and just let me be. Later in the afternoon I finally got an email from my advisor telling me to ignore the email I had received and that everything was ok, oh boy did I feel good!!!!!
We had a lovely dinner of nice yummy potato soup and chamuças(I am spelling it the Portuguese way) and I felt a lot better. After, Heather and I were pretty bored, she kept on asking me what I wanted to do, my brain was fried. Honestly I never thought a college thing would tire me so:P
Some thinking took place, but finally Miss Heather had a brilliant idea:
"Tehur lets go out on the trampoline and just look at the stars". she said.
To be honest at first I was not quite convinced about going out laying on the trampoline and stare at the stars as something fun, that would get us out of our boredom state, but she was so enthusiastic I had to go.
I am a changed person...
Heather is a professional star gazer. She has the binoculars, the mag lights, and we took our camera.
We stared at the stars for the longest time, with the binoculars you see oh so many more stars. Heather was really patient with me, telling me the names of the constellations and pointing them out for me with the mag light.
After a while we got bored again so we just jumped on the trampouline, she made a little fun of me becase I wouldn´t jump high enough. People it´s a trampouline, I mean broken bones ring a bell?????? But by the end I was jumping pretty high, laughing really loud and getting al sweaty and out of breath. Iam 22, my body is so not what it used to be!lol
There are the pics to prove it, but I am too tired to upload them, actually I am just lazy, so be patient, soon they will be on my facebook.hehe
I loved it! Heather was right it is a lot of fun.

Wishing

I wish I could make it all better,
I wish I did not care,
I wish dreams could just happen,
Without so much pain and despair.

I wish I would try harder,
To make things work for the best,
I wish my fear would wobble,
And not be always there.

I wish I could simply talk to you,
Without making you feel bad,
I wish my words would calm you,
Without making you regret.

But all I can do for now is wish,
For there is no taking back,
And wishing to me is enough,
For I know that you truly care.

Peace

I have quite come to the conclusion that people back home(Portugal) don´t live life.
Nope, I don´t think we even understand the meaning of living at all. Our lives are so filled with stress, worry, hurry, that we forget to stop and take a breath.
The peace of waking up early and having breakfast, of being able to sip your coffee and contemplate the beauty outside, while you feel the breeze against your skin. No, it simply does not happen, all one can possibly think of is of the possibility of sleeping 10 more min, before you run into your car get stuck in traffic, work your butt off for 8-10 hours to go home and just feel to tired of living.Next morning is a repeat of the day before, and this will happen for 5 work days and then a glorious weekend arrives just so you can sleep in. No wonder many people contemplate suicide.
I got here full charged with the stress of home, actually I think I have been pretty much stressed since the day I arrived in this world, but lately I have really been impossible to handle. So I came here, and out of the blue I have felt peace, real peace, that peace of body, mind and soul. I feel Zen!
I am not used to feeling Zen though so it has taken a little work from my side. I sometimes get mad at myself because I feel idle, other times I just bother Lisa to tell me of something I can help with, and others(most often) I actually just enjoy these moments.
It is a whole new concept for me, and I really just want to follow it up in the future, but I am afraid returning home will spoil my Zenness, so I will enjoy all that can, while I can, for soon it will be gone.

P.S. I thinking jumping on the trampoline is very Zen too, in its own way.

And Here I Am

And I was sucked into the blog world!
Blogs make me uncomfortable, a lot of people reading your posts and possibly all your spelling and grammar mistakes, it freaks me out. I am an English freak, I am sorry, but the fear of misspelling something is big.
Anyway here I am, and I have really no idea of what I want to say, well at least not now, having an opinion for almost anything will help.
At this precise moment I have been staying at the Borden´s house in Tanzania. I have been loved on and fell in love with this place. I knew I loved the people, I never thought for a moment it would take me exactly 30 seconds to fall in love with this place.
My mom being born in Angola must somehow have something to do with this, my childhood memories are filled with stories about the African sunsets, the heat, the friendly people, everything is as I was told. Nothing less, but a lot more than what I could have imagined.
This trip is my adventure, my opportunity to see a whole different place, to do something I love, and think about my next step in life.
Being 22 is a great responsibility, it means I have been an adult for a year in America, and for 4 years in Portugal, so there is no getting away, now it´s the time.
So far I have enjoyed my mornings helping Heather with school, my afternoons reading and answering emails, my evenings listening to all the pretty sounds that come from the yard and just being around people I really love. I guess I can put off the decision making for later????